Who else has felt this way?

I'm sorry to hear that Chloe. I get very lonely too. So I know its hard. I am older and most of my friends have families now but because of very bad illness I have never been able to have children. It is hard to socialize at my age when you don't have children. Anyway enough about me. I just wanted you to know that your not alone in your loneliness.

Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive. It is a presence, overflowing presence. ​You are so full of presence that you can fill the whole universe with your presence and there is no need for anybody." phrase I found in 'Ur Celestial Servant @ Meowa' 's work

strong vibe being a closteted diabled mentily ill trans girl in a "christian" household

definitely not the only one , but don't give up , it will take some time but you will surpass that feeling . better be alone than with toxic people , and trust me time will pass and you will be ok , just be kind to people . you will be fine . don't hesitate to reach out for help ( this sounds harder than it is trust me )