imperfections life

I just want one thing to stay the same, please just let me have this pipe dream, this follower cries, to end and part of a better life, but no one hear a thing, so let's just end it all tonight. Everything is never enough to stay feed, i want to never feel that painful touch, yet i still want to give you all within my head. As those who were dear, are block from my ears, since they never want me near, loud noise is all i want hear. Telling stories about hypocritical feelings compare to my state, i want to be humble but it's feel fake, am i really a star or just a hopeless waste, my own mind is misled and growing the pain. Can i be heard and seen, but I'm lost without your love, even if make me bleed, and is flying like a dove. It's painful to thinking about this and i never like pain, i already been hurt so can you stop, and destroy the evidence above. Hide the facts, from my sight, let my friend never hear my cries, world please, let me feel nothing at all, i don't want to feel alive.